Side update: my back. went to the pain management clinic today and was told that an epidual may help in the long or short run depending on how my mri next week goes. i am working on getting my life together and possibly keeping my current jobs that i am still on loa from. for now they have perscribed some meds to help the pain (non opioid) and i am basiclly funding my mental meds and pain meds with streaming atm. i need a nap and will be live later with sinking city, tho ff14 has had me by my throat the past two days >.<