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Not to be too vulnerable on the internet but my 2022 roller derby body is what I miss the most and probably give myself the hardest time about. Several medical events, stress, and the aforementioned agoraphobia have worked together to bring me back to the exact same weight and shape I was in when I first ran off to AZ in 2018. Even though I have hundreds of hours of old footage and livestreams that desperately need to be edited and posted and, God willing, monetized, I can’t make myself spend more than a few minutes reviewing them before I have to stop because of how low it makes me feel. Livestreaming is just as hard which is why you’re hearing from me in a long winded text post instead.
There’s so much that I have to be grateful for and excited about in my current life and I’ll share more about that another time I promise. For today, I needed to name some of the things that I’m still grieving and I appreciate all of you who took the time to read this.
<3
Glitch
Not to be too vulnerable on the internet but my 2022 roller derby body is what I miss the most and probably give myself the hardest time about. Several medical events, stress, and the aforementioned agoraphobia have worked together to bring me back to the exact same weight and shape I was in when I first ran off to AZ in 2018. Even though I have hundreds of hours of old footage and livestreams that desperately need to be edited and posted and, God willing, monetized, I can’t make myself spend more than a few minutes reviewing them before I have to stop because of how low it makes me feel. Livestreaming is just as hard which is why you’re hearing from me in a long winded text post instead.
There’s so much that I have to be grateful for and excited about in my current life and I’ll share more about that another time I promise. For today, I needed to name some of the things that I’m still grieving and I appreciate all of you who took the time to read this.
<3
Glitch